The Disassociation of a Demise

They said I was a troubled soul,
and I think I sided with them,

when it came to matters of the mind,
I could not quite get it all together,
not the way everyone else could,

there was a busybody nature to being askew,
there were things to tend to,
reasoning to be had with irrationality,

so if I went to the trouble of untroubling all of this,
what would become of me,

certainly nothing of note,
nothing of interest,
nothing worth jotting down in a book for people to recall,

they said it was a fear of being boring,
and maybe it was,
once,

but now,
it is just a fear of being nothing,
nothing at all