Watered Down

I taught myself how to drown

it seemed like the right thing to do at the time

as most things do

at the time

but then in time

right and wrong seem to struggle

saving face in the mirror

they no longer see eye to eye

like they thought they could

I held my head underwater

right where it belonged

beneath all the markers

the ones that belonged to people who could see properly

It was good practice for later

for when they counted me

one

two

three

four 

five

six feet down

Until they forgot where they put me

and I forgot what put me there

After all

there was no difference between soil and water

except that one can breathe