Discerning

I wanted to drink myself out of this,
out of boredom,
and predictability,
and things that made sense to other people much smarter than me,
but smarter in different ways,

and I wanted to tell you what to do,
one part of me,
anyway,
and then I wanted to run the other way,

both were viable options,

but no one wanted to live in the gap,
no one,

even you---