Last Years

I didn't like these games,
they were not mine,
or ours,

they were some other kind of,

I just hated wasted time so much more than I feared rejection,
and even though I had said that aloud many times before,
this time,
it felt different,

and I didn't need them to think I was soft,
or softer than my presentation,

I just needed to be me,
to be me,
again,

and there were too many boundaries,
and lines,
and reasons to stay inside of them,

which is exactly why I left