Problem Adult

Sleeping,

sleeping in again,
for me,

this was getting to be a habit,
not a routine,
and I knew if you could tell the difference,
we would not get along,

something about being with you made this a lot easier,
your underachieving made me feel like I was more than I was,

and that was sad,
even I knew that,

I think I just didn't want to say it out loud,

I don't know why--not saying it out loud would have rendered the same result,
maybe with more loneliness for me because I would have realized that I was a bad person for thinking about this,

I was,
though,

I was a bad person for using your weaknesses to build me up,
there was nothing good about that,
least of all my ability to conjure it up