In Grown

We didn't need the ride along,
or me,
I didn't need it,

I didn't need you,
and I was,
I was proud of that,
of me,
of my intolerance for inconsideration,

of your inability to write stuff down,
to rip the bandage off,
to close this up,
to seal the drain,

we bottomed out,
before we began,

we did,
and then some,
because I had these clean hands of mine,
and they were ready for more,

I just wasn't interested in 2008 anymore,
not this time