The Long Division

"Reversions to the past have never gotten me to the place where I want to be."

"And where is that exactly?"

"I don't think I know.  Sometimes I think I do and then it changes."

"That's fairly normal, don't you think?"

"I think I don't know what normal is.  I'd like to think I do, but when I get to a sense of normalcy, something reaches out and takes it away."

"And then you have your new normal."

"Exactly."

"But every moment is a new normal.  Until you look at it all like that, you're never going to be satisfied with any of this."

"That seems like an oversimplification, no?"

"Oversimplification of issues is not the negative task it has been made out to be.  Sometimes things are black and white.  There is not always grey.  There are not always three sides to a story.  Know what I mean?"

"Yes, but I'm not sure I know what it has to do with this."

"I don't even know what we are talking about anymore."

"Death.  We're talking about death."

"I thought we were talking about life.  Isn't that what we were talking about with moments of normalcy?"

"I don't know.  Maybe.  Maybe you have to consider death if you are talking about life."

"Maybe.  Or maybe that's your problem."

"Hmm."

"I think it is.  If you're always thinking of the end, then you're always thinking of the beginning.  The casualty is somewhere in the middle here, I think."

"Yeah, that sounds about right.  But you know what I think about all of this?"

"I think I am thinking too much."

"This is true."

"I don't want amnesia but I don't want nostalgia."

"Ah, the great dilemma."

"And I don't think any of this is funny enough for your musings."

"There.  You're doing it again with the thinking."

"You're right.  Life isn't about moments.  Just habits, it seems."