The Reversion of a Red Reverie

You asked me to use my imagination,
but you never took this into account:

I have other, more worthy imaginations beyond the designs and dislikes I like for you,

you and me had deep rooted hatred for other things,
other people,
and then we had the hatred for each other

and this I was not very fond of,

I got a lemon when I picked you out from the bunch
and somewhere I think I would take that back because I am better than people that speak like that,

but I am not better,

I am a drunk,
and an honest one at that----

I just wanted to love something that much,
and the truth of the matter was much simpler than I was giving my the synapses in my mind credit for,

I wanted to love something that much,
that much I said,

but it didn't need to be you,
in fact,

that it should not,
be