The Third Way From Yesterday

I was out of excuses for myself--

such is the nature of being a pathological liar

and only knowing what you don't think you want

thinking with things other than your heart

It took some getting used to and

now

well, now it's a habit to be broken

a rule to be broken

and it's rock solid

There were reasons not to be an addict

but they weren't appealing

neither was solving this problem

just boring

Lester Burnham had the right idea

and the wrong execution

He was an underachiever and an overdreamer--

or was it the other way around?

My roundabout schemes were starting to form a single file line

in the wrong direction

And after being jaded from the long distance run,

I stopped

breathed

and turned around

running back, running hard and running home

not because I was ever lost

but because I was just now thinking my heart had always been in the right place

just beating at the finish line

aware of my indispensabilities